31 days, 1 hour and 18 minutes..

Last week was probably the hardest week I’ve had since I came back to England, and I’m not entirely sure why.

I found myself spending more time crying in the office toilets, than actually sat at my desk doing work for the first half of the week,  and I’m not even exaggerating.

It would be easier if there was one thing bothering me, but there’s a whole list.   New job that I’m not enjoying, not getting along with people, missing Berkay, wondering when I’ll next see him after April, wondering how I’ll afford it and be able to take time off, worrying about where Boncuk is going to stay in summer… The list is endless, but I can’t go into much detail because my blog is public and there are eyes I don’t want reading it.

It’s painfully obvious I’m not happy here anyway.

On the plus side, only 4.5 weeks until Berkay is back here. To be precise, it’s exactly 31 days, 1 hour and 18 mintues til he arrives 😉

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9 comments

  1. Like you say,you are obviously not happy here I really don’t know what to say to you to help,I mentioned in a previous comment about going to college and studying to be a teacher,is that an option? If not than Danni save as much as you can between now and when Berkay arrives and go back with him,not ideal but after reading all your blogs ive come to the conclusion that you survived 2 n a half years in turkey,yes it was a struggle but you still lived to tell the tale. If there’s one thing ive learnt in this life it’s you only get one chance at it. You are a strong woman with a man that obviously adores you. No one can tell you what to do only you can decide but I’m sure your followers on here will support you whatever you decide x

    1. Aww thank you so much 🙂 Love the support I get on here. x

  2. I agree with Morgan here. Save as much as possible and go back to Turkey. You may be pore but at least you are happy there. If there is one thing I have learned about living in Turkey for almost 3 years is that no matter how little money we have we sure as hell are happy together here. Hope you find a solution that will give you the life you want, just remember that we only live once so we have to live the life now 🙂

  3. Christine Roberts · · Reply

    I so so agree with the above comments. Go back to where you are happy. Eventually you will both find your way to a better future together. Good luck xx

  4. You already know I absolutely agree with the above comments Danni. Nothing more I can see. You need to be where you are happy xx

    1. Thanks Linda, I know.. x

  5. I have already posted somewhere else but here is more relevant! I lived in Turkey for 2 years then came back for the winter to get some money saved up and go back after three months or so. Friends and family were over the moon I came back but that lasted a few days and all I wanted to do was go back I had spent £250 which we couldn’t afford for a one way flight and looked to be spending that again straight away without even getting a job! I just couldn’t bear to be away from hubby it was horrible and there was no skype or anything back then we didn’t even have mobiles! I was really naughty but made a snap decision and drew out money on credit cards and cashed cheques (I did pay it all back when we came back and kept in touch with the bank) and just snapped and realised where I belonged and just went back after a week. It was winter and I knew we would be dead poor but didn’t care. We had to eat casseroles made out of mushroom stalks and I had to make my own sanitary pads for a while seriously it was so hard but I knew I was in the right place. You have to go to part time study straight away in something you can use in Turkey even nails/beauty anything that is useful there – take it from someone who knows how hard it is to live there but it’s harder to be here on your own. Sell anything you can as you will need every penny – car boot ebay whatever set a date and just do it. Good luck xxxxxxx

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