Goodbye all over again..

When I woke up yesterday morning I knew it was going to be a long, hard day.
The atmosphere for the past 3-4 days was different, reality set in for both of us that Berkay would be going back to Turkey soon – and everything just felt strange.
Berkay packing his suitcase
My alarm went off at 0930, and when I realised what day it was I just wanted to bury my head in my pillow and go back to sleep. We got up,  got ready, had some toast, finished packing his suitcase and were out of the house and on the way to the airport by 11.30. Dad drove us and my brother and little sister came too.
saying bye to my sister… 😦
After getting a bit lost, we arrived at Luton at 13.15 and went straight to check-in. Seeing all the excited people going  on their holidays just makes it all the more depressing. He checked in, dropped his bag off and then we all went and had Burger King…

Then it was time to say goodbye. We all walked up the stairs to departures, my dad, brother and little sister gave Berkay a hug, then went downstairs and left me and Berkay to hug it out… we both shed a little tear, said bye, and then he went through the departures door and the point of no return…

The goodbyes NEVER get easier. Nothing will compare to the goodbye I faced when leaving my house, dog and Berkay behind when moving back to the UK, that was the worst day of my life – but everytime we say goodbye it’s the same feelings all over again. Not knowing when I’ll see him again makes it worse – there’s nothing to look forward to or countdown to.

Having my little sister there this time made it a little better – she’s a good distraction. She kept saying ‘Bye Berkay…come on Dan come downstairs, you’re not going back to Turkey as well are you? I want you to stay here and play with me!’  – cute. Berkay isn’t planning on coming back to the UK for a few years – so the next time he sees her she’ll be a lot older 😦

The blog post I wrote about saying goodbye last time he went in January sums up my feelings again exactly. There is nothing more to add really. It’s just not fair.

I suppose the only good thing to come out of long distance relationships is that you do cherish every moment – you have to.

I do have some good posts about our last few days together which will all be posted over this Easter weekend.

Happy Easter everybody. ❤

14 thoughts on “Goodbye all over again..

  1. Your so brave danni. Saying goodbye and not knowing when you’ll see each other again must be so upsetting. Hope you are together permanently soon xx

  2. Aw, that’s so sad Danni, but true love never dies, you will be together forever some day, the best things come to those who wait and you will get your dream soon chick, by god you deserve it xxx

  3. Hi Danni – how come Berkay won’t be coming to the UK for a number of years?
    I honestly think you move back there and ride it out however hard it may seem. xxx

    • He wants to go in the army next year – february hopefully – its deferred for 5 years but he wants to get it out of the way. He doesn’t want to come here at Christmas as it will be a waste of the visa really if he can’t make full use of it – and if they know he’s going to the army they might not grant him the visa anyway 😦 xx

  4. Bless you both, Danni go where your heart tells you, your clearly not happy without Berkay at your side, you managed in Turkey before, might be hard but your together… xxx

  5. Danni, thank you for the update……and for wearing your Heart on your sleeve.

    Your memories together over the past 3 weeks are treasures stored in your heart! The Treasures of the Heart cannot be stolen, and “Memories Last Longer Than Dreams”.

    You both looked so Happy at your mums wedding, days out at the theme park, picknicks etc etc. So glad that Berkay arrived home safely.
    Take care Danni, be brave.
    Kind regards XXXX

  6. Hey Danni,thank you so much for sharing updates and lovely pics. So pleased you and Berkay did so many things wow you sure crammed a lot into the time he was here. As Jan says the treasures of the heart cannot be stolen (what a fab quote) looking forward to reading the next instalment and your future plans. There are many people who will support you no matter what you decide to do. Big hugs 💅🐥x x x

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